Fear of Failure

Alright. Here it is. My new plan. I'm actually a little scared to put this out there (especially because when the 21 Day Fix Extreme came out I made the same kind of statements). Anyway. Day after day I tell people to believe in themselves, that they can do whatever they want, they are worth it, and to not let the fear of failure hold them back...which is exactly what I've been doing. Once you get inside your head that you CANT do something...you WONT. Everyday I will need to remind myself of WHY I'm doing "this" and that I deserve to be happy in my skin. I am a coach, who needed a coach...especially after no progress with Inanity Max 30 thus far (except for feeling stronger and improving endurance!). I reached out to my fellow coach and success partner Lauren, just asking her about a BCAA supplement. She asked me some questions, and through chatting I ended up sharing my current before picture-yikes. She told me (after telling me I look fine haha good friend) that I need to get my nutrition in line...it's something you know but means more when someone else tells you.

(anyone remember me saying that to THEM?)

 

She suggested I do the 21 Day Fix Extreme- Countdown to Competition plan while finishing out my last weeks of Insanity Max 30. I immediately thought in my head- hell no there is no way IIII could do that plan. That's not for me.

 "You're unhappy right?".

Shit she got me. She said...you know what you need to do. You got this.

 

So. On Monday, I'll be starting the 21 Day Fix Extreme Countdown to Competition plan.

(note: before I go on-this is just a personal decision where I am challenging myself mentally, and testing my own willpower. I need to see for myself that I am capable! There are lots of plans to follow for weight loss and health success.)

 

A little bit about the Countdown to Competition plan: (CTC) is based on the concept of "carb depletion", which is a staple in the competition world. It is designed to help you burn through those last stores of body fat- while continuing to fuel your workouts and keep you healthy. It's not a way of eating you can do indefinitely but its effective when done occasionally in short bursts. So...I'm going to give it a try! I have to remind myself its only 21 days! Then after those 21 days I will move onto the regular 21 Day Fix meal plan which is much more balanced and doesn't cut anything out.

 

 I know it wont be easy (even though Lauren says it will be haha). I know for sure it will test my willpower and strength. I will need to be prepared nutrition wise. I have to push harder during my workouts. I have to think of the finish line and my goal. Its way more than an image goal (although I'm not happy with that so it IS part of my goal). Too many times I give myself passes, or validate my excuses. I am a coach, but there are times where I struggle as well. I am definitely a stress eater. I have a salt tooth. I love all the wrong carbs. BUT, although I may struggle you will never see me quit! All I can do is try and give myself a good push.





Thank you Lauren for motivating me and guiding me. And thank you for accepting to be this coaches coach haha. Have I mentioned how much I love Beachbody for bringing me such SUPPORT in so many areas of my life?!

 

And family and friends... I know you will think I'm being too hard on myself! But I'm up for the challenge and I will allow myself a cheat meal once a week. My 30th is in 3 months and I wanna be feelin' good in that lake house we will be at youuu know!!!!  Anyway, I will be reminding myself daily....

 

PS: Should I step even further outside of my comfort zone and do a video diary of my experience? Too much? haha let me know in the comments below if you would watch them and if you want to throw some encouragement  my way that would be greaaaaat!